Sally created this doodle on an iPad. It was part of her blog called Day2DayRadishes. It is fair to say that I did not read my mother’s blog every day. Sometimes my subscription would fall off and I would forget – if the post did not appear in my mailbox, I did not read it. She would ask me, “Did you read my blog today?” “No,” I would say, “I was too busy [fill in the blank with the type of busy I was: moving, caregiving, shopping, bible banging, etc.]. Frequently, I would read her posts in one go, a big inhalation. Now I ask my children the same question and their answer is pretty much the same.
There is a repetitious line from Joan Didion‘s book The Year of Magical Thinking about not paying sufficient attention. It drove me nuts today, trying to find it. I failed. When I do, I will report back. But you get the drift. There are a lot of things to which I am not paying sufficient attention. Ironically, this has produced a counter-intuitive hyper awareness. How can the two states exist at the same time?
Sally visited MoodRingMomma in a dream, knitting and laughing, a Sally Sighting if ever there was one. But she has not appeared to me that way. I am waiting. Daily I implore the Holy Trinity for such a visitation; I up the ante by imposing on Mother Mary as well. It is fair to say that I have an emotional hangover after St. Patrick’s Day.
However, Antonio Banderas visited me in a dream during my nap today. Not too bad! I’ll take it.